‘Do you think you’re in news overload?’ Chris asks me on Thursday night as we sit down to watch the 7pm evening news.
‘We have to be informed,’ I tell him. ‘It’s important.’
‘But you’ve got it on all the time. It’s not healthy.’
He has a point. After watching the news every hour on the hour for the last six weeks, I’ve become quite the expert on coronavirus. I know what surfaces it lives on and for how long. I know the symptoms and incubation period. I even know about the intricacies of the ‘R’ rate. I’m so well informed I’m surprised I’ve not been asked to run the Downing Street daily briefing.
‘Shall we have a break from it?’ Chris suggests. ‘Just for tonight?’ He’s got a strange, almost desperate look on his face.
I consider telling him to go upstairs and watch what he wants but he looks like he’s about to crumble. Instead, I feel a compromise is in order. ‘We’ll watch Channel 4 news and then something else.’
He breathes a sigh of relief and then disappears into the kitchen to make us a cup of tea while I consume every piece of news available.
I sit on the sofa, staring at the TV and I can feel my heart rate getting faster, thudding in my chest. It’s about this time every night that I start developing symptoms. Headache, sore throat, feeling hot, I’ve had them all, just not at the same time.
‘My heart’s beating fast,’ I tell Chris when he returns with our tea.
‘Maybe it’s watching so much news.’
‘Don’t be ridiculous.’ I turn back to the TV.
When the hour is up, I feel dizzy and a little sick but thankfully my heart rate has steadied. ‘Perhaps you’re right,’ I say. ‘We’ll watch something else, something un-virus related.’
But just as I’m saying it an advert comes on for the programme on next. How Clean is Your House? A coronavirus special. It promises to explain how coronavirus works, how it uses our behaviour to get into our homes. And what we can do to stop it.
Immediately my heart resumes its frantic thudding. ‘We need to watch this,’ I say. ‘We need to know this stuff.’
The programme follows two families, who look to have immaculate houses, identifying how and where the virus could infiltrate. The expert provides germ-busting tips and tricks that leave me and the people on the TV shaking their heads and looking panicked.
‘I’ve been doing it all wrong,’ the woman on TV wails as she mops her floor.
‘You’re not the only one,’ I shout back.
Apparently, we should be using a three-mop system. ‘We don’t even own three mops. Why don’t we have three mops?’
More tips are revealed like sterilising the bleach bottles and sanitising the thermostat.
‘I don’t do that,’ I wail after each revelation. ‘Do you do that?’
‘No,’ Chris says. ‘I’ve never even thought about any of it.’
At the end of the programme, the dizziness and sick feeling is stronger than ever. ‘We’re living in a germ factory.’
Chris looks just as horrified as I feel.
‘Don’t panic,’ I say, grabbing a cloth. ‘I’m on it.’
That night and all the next day and into the weekend and bank holiday, I clean. I am not a cleaner. I have never been a cleaner but I clean and clean and clean.
When Mum rings, I don’t have time to chat. ‘I’m cleaning,’ I say.
‘Cleaning?’ I hear the shock in her voice.
‘Yes. It’s taken a global pandemic but I’m…cleaning.’
‘That’s good,’ she says. ‘I’ll leave you to it.’
The cleaning continues. There is not an inch of house left untouched. Chris even pops out and buys another mop — definitely an essential according to the expert on TV. I feel calm and in control. And then, the final job, the mopping.
Of all the new cleaning measures to introduce, it’s the three-mop system that causes the problem. I accidentally mix up the mops, and then use so much bleach, I have to go outside to avert an asthma attack.
While I sit on the patio, breathing in the fresh spring air, Chris stays inside. He runs from window to window, a tea-towel over his nose and mouth, trying to let in some air to dilute the toxic fumes.
Suddenly, it all feels too much. I take my newly-disinfected-phone from my pocket and text my friend. ‘I’m having a mopping-meltdown.’
Chris steps outside, removing the tea-towel from his face. ‘I wish we hadn’t watched that bloody programme.’
‘You were the one who —’
My phone beeps. A reply from my friend. ‘I’m here for you in these times of mop-related crises.’
The whiff of bleach has faded when I go back into the house. I put the three mops into the cupboard, put the kettle on, and breathe.